When things are going slowly, it's sometimes difficult to see how far they are going.
Since a few years, I am suffering from losses of memory. It took me time to realize it and even more time to get the full perspective of how it could change my everyday life.
For a glimpse of this disaster, I could give you a few examples during my last week :
Monday :
I forgot where I parked my car. I search for it for half an hour with no success. I was forced to go to my little office on foot.
As I also forgot the way to go, I get lost. It took me the afternoon to go back home. Result : I didn't go to work at all and I entirely spoiled my left shoe.
Tuesday :
I forgot that I forgot my car. So I had no surprise to find it just in front my house. It means I surely forgot not where my car was on monday, but what my car looks like. Even worse, I'm afraid.
So I had my car. But I forgot where were my keys..
So I decided to forget to go to work.
Wednesday :
I had my keys. My car didn't move during the night. I had the way to the office in mind. The sun was shiny and the day was full of promises.
I just forgot to get dressed. And I worked all the day wearing pyjamas. Nobody made any comment in the office.
I implies it could not be the first time I come in my sleeping clothes.
Thursday :
In the morning, everything seemed ok : car, keys, proper clothes, good way to the office. I forgot my password to connect to my computer, but I managed to remember that I had a post-it in my drawer with that password written on it.
I remembered well all what I planned to do during the day. And I even reminded all the tasks I had to postpone the previous days. Everything was scheduled during my workday, and in the end, was done.
At 10 PM, I realized that I forgot to go back home. I get clamped down by the security guard, in charge of watching the building, that thought I was a thief or something similar.
As I forgot my security code for this kind of case, I had to deal with the police officers the security guard called.
Fortunately, I had my ID somewhere in my car. And I was quite confident, until I realized that I forgot where I parked my car..
again.
Friday :
I decided to write a list of everything I should not forget during the day.
I was doing great to compensate my handicap.
But at some moment, I forgot I had that list in my pocket.
Saturday :
I forgot I was on week-end. So I went to work.
A kind of compensation for the the beginning of the week, I guess.
Sunday :
I found myself calling people to have some company for this day, with the idea of having some lunch with friends.
So I picked up my agenda, and start making phone calls. Unfortunately, speaking with most of them, after a few minutes I couldn't remember what kind of relationship I had with all these dudes. They were almost all strangers to me.
I finally manage to organize a small informal lunch with a few pals, I could have a hint who they were. It was supposed to take place in a chinese restaurant next to my flat.
And I forgot to go.
Brilliant isn't it ?
As you see, life can be treacherous with elder persons like me.
It sounds to me, as if with my aging my system was not operating as well as it used to be. My hard disk seems full of obsolete data I can't clean, my memory chip looks overloaded, my operating system is running slower and slower every year.
I fear there is no way I could get recycled.