As I have a very bad memory, I sometimes can't remember the precise URL of my own blog. So I ask Google to find my blog for me. I usually type expressions like "desperate freelancer" or something alike. And Google usually gives me the URL of this blog. But Google also can't help talking me about that Laurel Touby, a former "desperate freelancer" that most of the time takes the second place on Google's results.

And this piss me off.

How dares she follow me all the time like that ? I am the unique desperate freelancer. She can't try to steal away my title. That's not fair. That's no fun. And that's pretty inept, especially because she is now a millionaire, and no more what one could qualify as "desperate" nor even as "freelancer"

As an old moron with some time to waste, I started investigate a bit about her, and what I found out plunged me into great confusion

- She is in her forties.
- She is the founder and CEO of a website called Mediabistro
- I didn't catch at all what that Mediabistro website was about. Too far away from my sphere of understanding and too much too read for me.
- She is quite cute (as you can see on some photo here but I guess I reached an age where any woman 20 years younger than me can seem cute. What's your opinion guys ?)
- She likes boas
- She openly criticized and despised by at lot of people (most of information I found about her was strongly aggressive or even scornful). And I didn't understand most of the reasons why she is criticized so badly, while she seems like a nice person having been successful in life.
- It seems that she doesn't especially want to hold that second place on the expression "desperate freelancer" just before me, nor reach the first. But we never can be totally sure in a world where being the first is sometimes so important to people.

So to get things clear, I decided to write her a letter.

And my fellow and noble readers, I decided to share it with you :

"Dear Madame Laurel Touby,

I hope that you will forgive my poor English and bad manners, as I am an old grumbling and uneducated Frenchman.

I discovered your existence because you are second on the expression "desperate freelancer" on Google, just before me. I kinda understood that it was not on purpose, so I decided to write you this letter to sort things out. I don't know much about you, and don't understand much of everything they say about you, but I have one sincere question I would like you to answer :

Are you intending to steal me this first position, yes or no ?

If you do, please take note that I will fight like a lion to preserve my position. I don't know nothing about how to take a position on Google for an expression and all that Internet stuffs, and I don't know neither that 2 smiling dudes of Google that you surely meet in Internet Millionaires cocktails, but.. I am as stubborn as I am desperate, I could be mean also or cunning if necessary and I guarantee you hard times if you try to take me off one of the last good I could cling to. For example, I can .. I can... well, I will find something if you urge me to.

If you don't, then I guess it's alright and we could live side by side on that Google page. I would appreciate you don't give all other freelancers you may know the location of that page, so that we can stay only the two of us (with some other non pertinent guys) quite quiet facing this fantastic landscape where freedom melts with bitter.

Sincerely yours Charles,

Desperate Freelancer if any

PS : I wonder If some day you could tell me your story and how you succeed in becoming so rich starting as a freelancer. I guess it's too late for me to make it, but maybe I could find some tips to make a few bucks for my retirement."

Ok. So I dunno If I will get any kind of answer some day. I just hope she will be kind enough to understand my position. I don't want to jump on a site other that mine when I type MY expression on Google. (coz I am also too lazy now to click further than the first result on a Google page). No, I just don't want to get lost. The web is much too big for me.